27 March 2012

Response to an email I received from a relative which helped me work some things out.

Hi, thanks for responding to my post! I had a lumpectomy and both breasts were reduced but I still have “Lucy and Ethel.” LOL Yeah, I named them. I had a hysterectomy when I was 33 and I really had a time of it. By the time the Dr told me I had BC I already knew because I watched them do everything and asked questions throughout the whole process so it came as no surprise to me. I found out, after going through a divorce, that I became a strong person so I headed into the cancer dance head on with a my wacky sense of humor and faith.

I have learned a great deal over the past year and a half and it has taken a while for it to sink in my hard head but it finally is. So now I am opening up to the reality of the many faces of cancer (as they say at Virginia Oncology), understanding that I am continually changing. I was wondering why I was suddenly feeling on edge, real irritable, tiny weepy (that means I get teary eyed but that is it) – today I had an appt with my Plastic surgeon (everything was fine), and realizing that Monday I have another Mammogram and check- up with my Surgeon, and Tuesday I have Lab work at my Oncologists, I am facing the unknown which comes with anxiety and panic (I have Panic Disorder along with Fibromyalgia and a broken finger ) so I am experiencing the change from one face to another one (hope it is prettier than this one! LOL)


Bloodwork is clear, will hear about tumor markers in about a week. He said last time my markers was 30 which is normal.

26 March 2012

Another 6th month Mammogram

Today I had another 6th month Mammogram which came back clear! Another sigh of relief! October 2010 through March 2012 - a 1 year and 6th month Cancer Survivor! That's me!

Before October 2010 everyday was just another day that I lived. When the Verdict was in suddenly everyday was special, it glowed with the light of life in this War that erupted against me. I can't say it interrupted my life, no, no it didn't interrupt it, this War is another phase of my life. Every day from now on is a battle whether I am aware of it or not, every day has become special, a day in which life has danced joyously around and through me - even those days when I feel down, overwhelmed, ill-at-ease, scared, or anxious. I've made it through another day, a wondrous day of being cancer-free.

25 March 2012

"Pearl" has just been finished!

I started this picture 2 months ago then broke my ring finger on my drawing hand! After two weeks the Dr saw her life was in danger if she didnt let me draw ( :D just kidding)  so I started back to work on it. It has been 6 weeks and the finger is starting to heal. anyhow, Pearl finally got tired of not being able to swim so she found a magic wand and hit me with it (she thinks it helped to get the pic finished). So without further ado, Here is Pearl:

22 March 2012

In a weird place.

For the past few weeks I have been experiencing some mood swings and irritability. I feel like I am in limbo. I thought I had come to terms with having had cancer and gone through the dance but lately I’ve been feeling a tiny bit sniffly and sad. Perhaps I have finally come to the place where I am starting to grieve but not sure about what. I started reading a book a few days ago by Jenny North- something about Victoria’s secret keeps coming – and the more I read the more I felt down. The cover said it was written with some humor but I saw none at least not for me. I was going to stop reading it but then I decided maybe I need to read it so I could reap from her lessons. So perhaps I am finally able to open up to what is hidden deep within, things I didn’t know were hiding away.

I spoke with the lady I called the Grand Boober (the lady that is the head of “Beyond Boobs” in our area) about what I was going through and she explained that cancer has many faces and with each manifestation of something whether it is a test or weird feeling or finding something or learning something more about my cancer, I am changed and my cancer has a new face that I have to get use to, come to terms with. Dag, I feel like I have multiple personalities! And just when I thought I had come to know myself… LOL


13 March 2012

Not my best friend!

For the umpteenth time since we have been married I will make this declaration:

"It is safer for me to sit on the couch and eat bonbons than to exercise!"

I just did a slow speed walk and pulled a muscle in my RIGHT hip butt! The RIGHT one! What is it with the right side of my body? I guess we need to have someone come cast out the demons from that side I guess!

03 March 2012

Wade Taylor, Founder of Pinecrest Bible Training Center

Wade Taylor, Founder of Pinecrest Bible Training Center

Bethany Bible Training Center is saddened to announce the passing of our founder, Wade Taylor, on February 29. Brother Taylor pioneered this "School of the Spirit" in obedience to God's call and invested nearly three decades of his life as its President, training men and women to develop an intimate relationship with the Lord and to fulfill His end-time purposes in the earth. His life, writings, and teachings have profoundly impacted many people throughout the world. Our prayers and condolences are with his family.

Though I haven't seen Bro. Taylor in years, we have been in touch. He was a grand human and I know he is very happy to be in the house of Our Father now. I have good memories of him. I shall miss his joyful ways!
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